22

I see the number 22 everywhere. I see it throughout the day on the clock, sometimes up to 6-8 times a day. I see it on license plates, phone numbers, addresses, crosswalk timers, you name it. For almost a year now, I’ve seen it anywhere and everywhere.

God loves to speak to us more than we want to hear. Maybe because we expect Him to speak in certain ways, or the ways we think He speaks are in a neat little box, never to be opened or ventured out of. The truth is, He speaks through absolutely everything. He can tell you something He wants you to know through anything He wants. He once spoke to me through a drunk man, and I knew it was Him because I knew the man, and I knew he would never say anything like that in his right mind.

I kept asking the Lord what the number 22 meant. I had a Christian dream/signs interpretation book that I studied. I went through every book in the Bible, chapter 22: verse 22. I’ve had a few dreams about keys, so I thought maybe it was Isaiah 22:22, “I will place on his shoulder the key to the house of David; what he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open.” I thought that’d be pretty cool if that’s what God was trying to speak over my life. But no, I knew that’s not what God meant. Not for now anyways.

Then one day I was browsing through my Passion Translation Bible, just flipping pages, and stumbled on Proverbs 22:4, “Laying your life down in tender surrender before the Lord will bring life, prosperity, and honor as your reward.” I have written a book about surrender and have spent years trying to practice it, so I thought this was it for sure! I was so excited I had finally figured it out. The words on the page had just jumped out at me, so it had to be what the Lord meant! Yes!

But a small part of my heart didn’t feel right. Maybe this scripture was a part of what God was trying to tell me, but it wasn’t the main thing. What then, could it be?

One Sunday afternoon, I was really fighting with discouragement. What was my purpose in life? I know that loving on and being there for my 3 daughters, 2 step kids and husband are a huge part of what I’m supposed to be doing now. And I know they will always come first in whatever stage of life I’m in. But I was still fighting with this gnawing feeling that I am or will be called to do something more. And I don’t know what it is. Should I be doing more with my book, or my church, or my blog? Should I be trying more things with my cupcake business? Why is it so hard to not be content where I am right now? Why am I so miserable?

Then I heard these words out of nowhere, “When the time is right, I, the Lord will make it happen.” They came so powerfully to my mind that I could have sworn I heard audibly heard them. Hmm, that’s interesting. Where have I heard that saying before? Is it a scripture? I typed it into my phone and sure enough, Isaiah chapter 60. I scrolled down, only to find it in… yep, you guessed it: verse 22! I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that, that was what 22 meant. God is so funny sometimes. Scripture says He loves to speak in puzzles, Jesus even spoke in parables all the time. He does that so we will search it out, and position our hearts to hear.

I still don’t know what “it” is. I have no idea what my future will look like. I suppose none of us do, but that’s a side point. What I mean is, is that I know God wants to do something big in my life, but I don’t know what it is. I knew that before, but I actually have more peace now. I’m only doing what I know to do now, and let God take care of the rest.

So every time I see the number 22, which is still all the time, I smile and remind myself to trust God, because when the time is right, He will make “it” happen.

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